Tuesday, November 30, 2010

Remembering you this Christmas

We are all remembering you this Christmas Adrian. I stopped by the cemetery today and said hello to you. Lined up your cars, and said goodbye until next time...

Monday, November 29, 2010

Butterflies

Hidden in the clouds,

Above the wavy sea,
There is a place called Heaven,
And it's calling out to me.

I really hate to leave you,
All alone and so upset,
But I know you really love me,
And that you won't forget.

My time with you's been short,
But I don't want you to be sad,
Celebrate the memories,
And all the good times that we had.

Butterflies surround me,
Coloured pink with streaks of gold,
And all the other kids here,
Say that we'll never get old.

So when you're feeling down,
And you miss me more than ever,
Remember that I'm happy,
And that I'll be with you forever.

Author: Maya Hayden-Evans

Death Notice

In every paper there's the section where people post announcements. When Adrian died, we posted in the Toronto Star, Trentonian, and Intelligencer. Since his death, we have never posted anything since. I always wanted to do something on his birthdays and do something in his memory, but never get to it. For his fifth birthday, I am going to post something in the local papers, maybe the same three... I know the Toronto Star is very pricey, but that's nothing compared to what we would've spent on him had he lived.

Thursday, November 25, 2010

Baby Madison

My girlfriend Misti just gave birth to her second daughter Madison today. I can't say how much relief was lifted off my chest when I heard she was okay. I can't say how much relief was lifted after I got off the phone with her this evening.

Misti's first daughter was born, and passed away after 16 days which also happened to be Christmas day. After I got off the phone with her, she told me that she now feels complete. She feels completely different now. She got her baby girl, and feels that her family is finally complete. Madison has filled that hole in Misti's heart.

When Misti explained that to me, I knew exactly that feeling. I want one more baby, I want my baby boy. Obviously, I know I can't have him, but I'd like to try again for a boy. But if we weren't gifted with another boy I say to myself I'd be happy with 3 girls, but I wonder if the hole that I feel would be lifted with a 3rd baby, or if that is only something a baby boy would fill.

Remembering Adrian...

I've created this place to remember our son, Adrian. He passed away 4 years ago, and I still think of him everyday. I know I am not alone in thinking of him, so I created this blog for those who are interested in reading about him, as well as a place where I am able to "talk" about him without feeling like I am talking about the elephant in the room.