Sensitive & Triggering...

I felt this exact way for soo long after Adrian died...

Angels for Hope

I went out to get my mail this morning and received a package, didn't understand who'd be sending me something from Pennsylvania with Canadian stamps on it... Inside laid this butterfly. On the card it says:

"Someone special has requested that you receive this "Wings of Hope" so that you would know that you are loved and cared about. Our thoughts and prayers are with you. Hugs -- Angels for Hope"

On the back it says:

"Made for you by Kathy in Ontario"

I had never heard of this charity group before, but after looking, I can see how wonderful it is. People who are apart of the charity are assigned to mail out either an Angel, Butterfly, or Happy Face to those who've requested one be sent out to another person. If you know someone who could use a little bit of hope, or know anyone who would like to register to send out some hope, please check out their website Angels For Hope

I can't speak for how much this means to me, or how wonderful it is. So, thank you whomever you are that sent it my way... God bless.

Year 5...

This will be the fifth year that Adrian has been gone. I want to do something special for his birthday this year. Where did that time go? I will forever long for his life... I'm very happy and grateful for our daughters, but a boy? How fun would that be? I guess I'll really never know.



I'll never be able to play trucks, go build and play in tree-houses, make forts, go dirt-biking... I will never see him graduate and become whatever he would've been in life... Doctor? Firefighter? Pilot? Trucker? Movie star??? the list goes on! I will never be able to pin his boutonniere on his tux on his wedding day... see his children... my grandchildren...

This year, we will celebrate his life. We will grieve, well, I will... But we'll celebrate. We will celebrate and love... Cherish his very important life that was taken away way too soon. We will celebrate his life like at his baby shower, with happiness.