Thinking of you...

Today I received some special mail. A card. But, not just any card... A card for my family... for Adrian. I saw who it was from, and instantly knew what it was. I knew right then my day would get so much better. Today I needed this. Today my darling girls are testing me, and I'm not in any mood to do so.

Today marks the day I knew something was wrong. Today marks the day I was induced. Probably the worst day of my life, 5 years ago. All day I have been wanting to vomit, and it's only 10:00 am. So, that was showing me how my day was going.

Yesterday, I changed my profile photo on facebook, and a friend of mine posted "just wanted to let the world know I LOVE YOU!!! thanks for being an awesome friend hehe". And it made my day, well night... I feel blessed.

I'm so glad I have great friends, far and close. I know I have great support. It's a complete new feeling since when we had him, we hardly had support. We had kind emails, and flowers... but the pain still (and still does) stung... Friends dwindled, and we found new ways to cope. But now? Not so much. We have all kinds of great friends, and great support. I hardly knew what a great circle of people I've surrounded myself with until recent months. And, I'm glad.

So, thank you everyone for thinking of us.

Remembering you this Christmas

We are all remembering you this Christmas Adrian. I stopped by the cemetery today and said hello to you. Lined up your cars, and said goodbye until next time...

Death Notice

In every paper there's the section where people post announcements. When Adrian died, we posted in the Toronto Star, Trentonian, and Intelligencer. Since his death, we have never posted anything since. I always wanted to do something on his birthdays and do something in his memory, but never get to it. For his fifth birthday, I am going to post something in the local papers, maybe the same three... I know the Toronto Star is very pricey, but that's nothing compared to what we would've spent on him had he lived.

Remembering Adrian...

I've created this place to remember our son, Adrian. He passed away 4 years ago, and I still think of him everyday. I know I am not alone in thinking of him, so I created this blog for those who are interested in reading about him, as well as a place where I am able to "talk" about him without feeling like I am talking about the elephant in the room.